Navigating

Hello my cherished readers, I have been away for so long and truth be told it has been struggle to sit down and actually write this. I entered the New Year with high hopes of achieving more in my life like never before. Within the first few weeks of the year, my family and I were hit by a major and irreplaceable loss. It has not been easy to navigate through this season, it was really a shock to the system. I am not completely ready to share everything but writing has always been a source of therapy to me. I don't want this to end up being a sad and forlorn post, because in the midst of my heartache, I know God is control. I won't understand it all completely, but I am sure in time, everything will start to make sense. There is so much going on in the world today, people are struggling with heart wrenching issues, and we all need some form of encouragement. It is really time for us to rally around each other, especially as believers in Christ and support each other as much as we can.

I know there are many people in situation, trying to navigate the pain of losing someone and feeling so alone and misunderstood. I pray that the Lord comforts you and that He fills the emptiness that you wake up to everyday. Healing takes time, it won't be all okay within a day but overtime as you surrender your heartaches to the Lord, He will surely see you through. I was feeling inspired today and decided to write this poem, I pray that it ministers to you and provides some much needed comfort in this difficult season:

Jesus, you've been walking me through my storms

But this one, it's a pain that won't just fade away

It's a festering wound, that I see and experience everyday.

There is an emptiness that I find hard to seal up

Some days feel like a drag, clouded by the dark shades of my pain

In my mind's eye, this heartache is a mountain that cannot be conquered in day

Won't someone wake me up??!

This dream is too long and painful

I am leaning on you Jesus

To lift me out of this

To hold my hand tightly

In the midst of this, I pray I don't stumble

Lord, restore my soul

Renew my faith everyday, may your peace guard my heart.

Amongst my thousand and one questions

You remind me that you are in control

It's crazy sometimes, trying to navigate through the whirlwind of emotions

With deep breaths in between, I counter every feeling to blame myself

The real ones stand with me, those who love through thick and thin

Stand behind me as a strong supportive force, speaking life giving words to my weary soul

And indeed, it stirs me up to believe more everyday that...

"Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to soul and healing to the bones"

Giving me strength to keep going.

I may look weak to some as find my way through this

Those who can't relate to my pain but think its wiser to wrap it up quickly and move!

Irrespective, I choose to take it a step at a time.

I am convinced everyday, that I may not know when or how

But I shall arise above this adversity

I will smile again.

My testimony will speak to multitudes.